I Need More Of It

October 1, 2018

Time is constant and time is one of those things that puts us all on the same level playing field. You can't buy or acquire more of it. The only thing you can do is use it more efficiently. Nothing has been more frustrating for me this week than understanding that despite all my efforts, there just isn't enough time in the day. And the worst part about using time efficiently is that the more routine and calculated you use time, the faster it appears to go by. 

This year has flown by for me and the reason for that is I constantly time hack my days. I build routines and follow them strictly. It's the only way to make the progress I make, but in doing so, it's hard to sit back and enjoy the life I'm working so hard to improve. 

Today's post is more of me venting than me offering any solid advice or insight on productivity. I've been working hard, but my growth has been so slow. It's extremely taxing working two full-time jobs while also trying to balance a healthy lifestyle. By healthy I mean, eating healthy, working out, finding time for social interaction and physical activities. At the end of the week, I sometimes think, what did I even do this week?

And that's because often times despite everything I do, I feel stagnant. When I first started dating my current girlfriend, we had a discussion about careers and life goals. And I sort of blurted out that I want to build my legacy..... Legacy? A big word, but what exactly did I mean by that? I don't want to be famous. I don't even want to be rich. I don't want to possess things.

What I really want to do is help others. 

And not exactly in the traditional sense. I want to teach. I want to educate and someday I hope to setup incubators for start-ups. I don't want to be rich, but I want the financial freedom to be able to do these things everyday. 

So that's my biggest problem right now. How do I afford myself to allow the freedom to give back. At the start of this journey, I thought I could build a game for the app store that could support me for a couple of years to get me out of my job and into a creative space where I could work on my legacy. Along the way I discovered YouTube (not the website, but the power of the platform) and realized I can teach small amounts of people every week with my videos. 

And that's what I've been doing, but releasing one video a week, just doesn't cut it in my mind. I want to be posting every day. I want to impact thousands and millions of peoples lives. And the worst part is that on weeks like this past week, I didn't have anytime to create a new video.

I work nights, and I work weekends.

There just isn't enough time. 

So this week I am focusing on ways to improve my time. How can I work more efficiently so that I can do all the things I want to do, while also keeping my head above water. Life is full of responsibilities so how do I get to where I need without drowning myself. When you're on an airplane, they tell you to put on your oxygen mask on before assisting others. This is sort of like that. I can't expect to help others unless I take care of myself first. 

Have you ever felt this way? Where despite all you do, it just doesn't feel like enough? Shoot me an e-mail, I'd love to hear your story.

(wal•do) — Person
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